2DPO

Today is 2 days post ovulation and I am so tired. That trigger shot really makes you feel about 5-6 wks pregnant. It's 5000miu of hcg (pregnancy hormone) so I've been just so tired. I could sleep all day. I guess this is what I have to look forward to :P I am happy to look forward to it if it means i'm pregnant! Right now of course, It could go either way and that is what is scary. I will be so disappointed if I take my test on the 11th and it's negative. But we will keep trying if that's the case... it will just be up in WA. I keep thinking maybe my egg will split into identical twins and how neat that would be! :) It's such a long shot, but it is for everyone who conceives identical twins. Well, I came on here with really not much to say. All i've done today is take a jumperoo I gave away on Craigslist (it had a broken part that needed fixing so I made it free). I was 30 mins late getting there cause I got so lost. LOL. I'm so glad to be home and now it's M's naptime and I just ordered a medium pizza (for later) and a sandwhich for now from Dominos. Mmm I can't wait till it gets here! I will leave you with a photo of Eric and I from his Dining Out ball.

 

Today (well technically yesterday now) was the big O day!

So 24ish hours after the trigger shot the nurse told me I should ovulate and I've had some serious O pains and been super tired from the hCG shot... or just maybe being going all day, I don't know which. Today.. I had to go get my hair fixed. The girl who did it last time didn't fix my roots. Like.. why would you NOT fix somebody's roots... isn't why they come in to get their hair colored in the first place? Then I wanted more red, but she said she had no idea what I was getting at, she just couldn't picture it. So I had talked to the girl who curled my hair and did my half up-do of the Dining Out yesterday and I called her and made an appt for 3:30. Basically I had to waste like 3 hours in because I was 30 minutes away from home and didn't want to waste gas going back and forth. My hair is how i wanted it now though. The girl at the first salon did all over color like I wanted her to do in the first place in a the dark brown I wanted and then the girl at the second salon put in a color called 'lava' w/ a kick of rocker red to make it show up better since my hair is so dark. It looks cute.

I went to this boutique today whole I was waiting and got the cutest picture frame! It's going to be for the first u/s of our little bean. Even if it's not this cycle we will keep trying until it's God's time. I am putting my trust in him. Then, I came home to a big package of cloth diapers. I have decided to start cloth diapering Maddox again. It makes PT'ing sooo much easier. Plus, they are a adorable!!! <3 Here's some photos of my goodies from today. Some of the cloth dipes are in his room that came yesterday... I'll have to get some pictures of those tomorrow. One is personalized :)

From L to R is a Kiwipie Fitted, a Kissaluvs Marvel, a Knicker Nappies (lol), A Rumparoos & a Happy Heiny's diaper cover as well as 3 cloth wipes. Maddox has 5-6 more diapers in his room a quite a few more on the way :) He was CD was about 4-8 months but then it just too overwhelming because my parents's had a front lodaer, they would refuse to change his diaper, etc.

Well I can't hold my eyes open. I hope everyone is having a fab weeekend!!

RE appt today & Dining Out

I had my RE appt this morning in St. Louis. I was supposed to be there at 9:45 (it's a 2 hour drive) and my stinking alarm didn't go off! Maddox woke up me at like 8 something! I didn't shower or anything! I got dressed as quick as I could.. fed Maddox a Nutrigrain bar and milk and left. I called them and asked would it be okay because my doctor was only working 1/2 a day they told me when I booked my appt. Well, the reason why is because he goes to the IVF center on Fridays. Just so happens today was my lucky day and he didn't have any cases, so they told me to come on when I could. I got a positive OPK yesterday. I always get + OPKs every month but I never ovulate.. it's just my body gearing up for ovulation. Anyway, I could feel something was going on in there cause I have been so crampy. Well he did the ultrasound and I had a 22mm x 22mm follie! That is a great sized follie! I was a little disappointed I only had one, but excited the the Femara worked none the less! So, they sent me down to the pharmacy to get my trigger shot. This hospital is huge. I got lost like a hundred times... pushing Maddox in his stroller and he was getting antsy, so I stopped and got him a cookie and me a drink. After I got my trigger shot, I went back up the elevator to my RE's office and the nurse gave me my shot and we left.

Tonight was Eric's Dining out, basically a military ball of sorts of his BOLOC (Basic Officier Leadership _____ Course) I don't know what the other O stands for lol. Anyway it's very formal. So I went and got my hair done. Then I came home and hurried to get ready cause I was already running so late. Eric had to leave before I was able to put on my dress so when I took Maddox over to my friend Christin's who watched Maddox for us while we were at the Dining Out, she zipped me up lol. The Dining Out lasted forever and was pretty boring. It's so ceremonial-like. They do serve dinner and I had been so busy all day that I hadn't eaten and when I did eat it tore my stomach up, so I had a horrible stomach ache. Anyway, it was fun to dress up and all that for a night. :)

As far as the baby thing goes... I'm supposed to ovulate tomorrow. So, Sunday will 1 DPO. The nurse told me not to test until February 11th because I will get false positive due to the hcg trigger shot. So that stinks. I am just praying really hard that this is it! I have a good feeling about it! I'm keeping the faith that the Lord will come through for us and help us create this baby and sibling for Maddox we want so badly.

Whew what a week!

This has been the most trying week I've had in a LONG time, and I think blogging might help me get some of the pressure off my chest. My axiety is through the roof. Thank goodness for my meds, but once I get that beautiful BFP, I won't be able to take them anymore.

First things first. All day Monday, Maddox was fine. He played just fine and ate okay for him. The child barely eats... he's the pickiest eater on the planet but i'll get to that in a moment. Oh I guess I should mention Eric has been in the field all week. Monday night he didn't come home and he wasn't supposed to come home until Thursday but I suppose the cadre took pity on the poor men and let them come home late at night beacuse of the cold. It is SOOO cold at night here. As I type it's 26* but the wind is what makes it unbearable. Anyway, Maddox kept waking up which isn't like him so at 10pm I gave him 1tsp of Motrin thinking it was likely his 2 year molars. Well he woke up a few more times and when he woke up at 1:45 he was BURNING UP! I took his temp and it was 103.8 on his forehead. So I loaded us up and we went to the Fortwood ER (which I despise btw). Anyway, after bookoos of waiting they did a chest xray and said he had Pneumonia and sent us home with Amoxicillin. Really? Amoxicillin? That's the least strongest antibiotic out there. I was peeved. I called his pedi the next day but they were covered up but they got us in for this morning at 10:30. I've been giving his motrin and tylenol around the clock to keep his fever down and he won't eat and will only drink when he feels like it which isn't all that often. Anyway, we get into the pedi and she tells me the xray report say atypical pnumonia or some type of air way disease and she thinks it's neither. She said ERs send kids in all the time w/ "pneumonia" when it's just a virus. So she did a repeat xray and said they'd call me later but to keep him on Amoxicillin. Again, I was peeved. I get a call back later in the afternoon saying YES, it is Atypical Pneumonia and she is changing his antiobiotics. I don't want my child to have peumonia, don't get me wrong, but I am so glad to be right and show her she CAN be wrong. Ugh. That just annoys me to no end.

Today I had to go get my estradiol drawn for my appt on Friday to see how my follies are growing and let me tell you that was a goose chase and Maddox feeling the way he did, did not like it one bit. FIrstly, I went to St. John's... cause that's where my RE is at... they said they are ONLY affiliated with Springfield not St. Louis...WTC... ok? So, I go to the hospital, they draw the blood and then tell me they have to send it off and it's going to take 5-7 days. I felt like crying. I have to have those resilts BY Friday. I called my RE's office and told them the issue. They looked up a Quest lab near me and sent in orders for me to go there... so I went there and was stuck another time and NOW hopefully we'll get my levels back in time. I go to my RE on Friday for a follie scan to see how my eggs are growing., whether I need to trigger soon, whether I need more time, whether I need injectables, etc. All of this waiting is so frustrating. I just want to to KNOW.

Anyway, other than that, i'm exhausted... not much is going on. My blog is undergoing a makeover by the sweetest girl named Jennifer :) I can't wait to put my new layout up!! So, if you want your blog button on my page just let me know :-) ! I think my pillow is soon to be calling my name! Night everyone! <3

Sometimes, Always, Never

This is a little something I stole from my friend Christin's blog Christin's Blog

Sometimes....

-I wish I could act like a 22 year old (not very often) but there are times I want to pretend I am just a regular 22 year old doing regular 22 year old things.
-I wish I could eat whatever I wanted and not gain weight
-I wish Maddox was a baby again <3
-Sometimes I just hold Maddox and cuddle him and savor those moments
-I do something out of my comfort zone and actually end up enjoying it

Always....

-carry my iPhone

-chapstick

-have anxiety

-try to make the right decsions

-spend too much money (almost always)

-love sweats and a big tee shirt w/ fuzzy socks

-the smell of Maddox after his bath

-love shopping!

-love manis & pedis

-KNOW i'm one lucky lady!

-miss my best friends

-love anythng vampire related lol!

-love to sleep!

-love when Maddox gives me kisses for no reason

-love when how my hubby smells right out of the shower

Never....

-do hard core drugs

-say never! ;)

-want to hurt my family or friends.

-like confrontation.

-thought being a Mommy would be the best thing I will ever be.

-knew you shed your whole body skin every 28 days till last week.

-knew a 22 month old, 35" 26lb 13oz little munchkin could be the absolute love of my life!

 

From this

 

To this

It blow my mind and makes my heart hurt just a little bit.. He's not a baby anymore. He's now a little person <3

Baby Names

So, I've been thinking a LOT about baby names lately. I am truly hoping this is THE month we get pregnant. Our girl name is set in stone. I think I want to keep our names a secret till the baby is born, but I know i'll probably cave. I'm SURE of it actually lol. We've had a lot more trouble with boy names though. Eric doesn't much like my taste in names. Being that I'm named Ashley, I hate common names. HATE them. With a passion. So, It's not that I want to name my child Moonstone or something, it's just I want it to be unique, like Maddox. I have only met one other little boy named Maddox in real life. I think he'll be one of only a couple Maddox's in school if not the only. We will see. The name "I" have chose for our little boy, he will never have to worry about having another perosn with this name. There were always 20 ashleys or more in my grade and I hated it. If I heard someone yell "Ashley" I never even turned around, haha. I don't want that for my children. So, I think Eric will come around. I really don't think we wil have to worry about it though because I have this weird, strong feeling our child will be a girl and we both agree on her name and it's beautiful! Oh how I can't wait to get that big fat positive test! I will be so thrilled and so over joyed. I will be praising the Lord!!! :)

Well that's it for today.. just some thoughts I had. I emailed a girl to ask if she could do a new layout for me with side bars and and everything. It will cost $$ but will be worth it when my blog looks so awesome :) I hope she emails me back soon!

Ashley

Getting ready for WA!

We went to Osage Beach today and went to the outlets.. we did a little shopping.. not much. But we did get Maddox the cutest rain coat and boots. I took some pictures of him in them this evening :) I <3 them!

 Hope you all are having a fabulous weekend!!! :)

Stay this little...

The Taylor Swift song... "Never Grow Up" really gets me teary eyed every time I hear it. It's so true. They grow so quickly. When you're a kid you want to grow up so fast, but I look at my son each day and I just don't want him to grow so fast. His second birthday is quickly approaching and I vividly remember being miserably pregnant and just wishing I would go into labor so I could be "normal" again and meet my little man. Now he's a toddler walking around and acting so big sometimes. I miss the itty bitty days. I can't wait to be pregnant again. I pray so hard every month is the month. I really hope this month is THE month. My RE is awesome and maybe it truly will be OUR month. <3

Oh darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh darling, don't you ever grow up, don't you ever grow up
Just stay this simple

I won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
No, no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up, never grow up

Maddox's Birthday Party is coming up!

Maddox's Birthday isn't actually until March 23rd.. but his party is going to be February 12th due to our move to WA. We wanted our family to be able to be there to experience his 2'nd birthday with him, so 2/12 it is! :) It is Yo Gabba Gabba themed which is Maddox's FAVORITE show! He gets so mesmorized by it! I think I've definitely gone a little overboard w/ this party but I can't help it lol. Hehe. It's going to be at a bounce house place called Kidz Play in GA where we're from. I know he will have loads of fun with all his friends :) I've got all the invites ready to mail out. I'll probably put them in the mailbox tomorrow or either go to the post office. I need to send a package to a friend anyway. We are getting snow tonight and tomorrow though, so I'm not sure if I want to get out in that, although the PO is only about a mile away from my house.

I ordered Maddox a Grobee tshirt and had him 2 pairs of Grobee longies (pants) made. The first pair are just plain light green/dark green striped. The second pair actually have Grobee on the bum :P I've gotten the first pair in and have some photos i'm going to share.

They are so soft and so cute!!! :)

And here's what his birthday invites look like! I blurred out the address to the place & my phone number.

Everything matches this :) I'm so excited about his party. I think he's going to love it. The cake is going to be awesome.. the favors for the kiddos are awesome... it's coming along nicely. Anyway. It's late. I just wanted to get a little blogging time in :) Night all!

Playing!

He was having a good 'ol time today in his room all by himself. Love capturing these memories :) I love him. I may be a bit biased though ;-)

All about us!

Well, the biggest things are on the side bar to your left, but there's a lot left to know about me. I am 22 years old. My son is almost 22 months old. My husband is 35 (or will be Feb. 8th) so I that means I got pregnant at the ripe 'ol age of 19. Do I regret it? No way. Are there things I wish I could do, of course. But I love my son and husband more than life. I wouldn't change a thing. I have always (well since I started dating around the age of 14) dated older men. My first relationship was at age 14 with an 18 year old and it lasted about 3 years.I met Eric one day after my eighteenth birthday. He was very turned off by the age difference. Can you believe I pursued him? It took him eleven months to commit to me. We were friends first and that was hard on me. I fell in love with him long before he fell in love with me, and I knew I would do anything to be with him. Here we are 4 years later, with an almost 2 year old. Our son's name is Maddox and he is the light of our lives! He is such a whirlwind to say the least! Unless he's asleep or his favorite show is on, he never stops! He's what I call my "little toddler tornado."

Eric is in the Army, like I mentioned in my "about me" section. He is an officer and it can be grueling at times. Right now he is finishing up his last school (for now) and let me tell you he is stressed to the max and it makes a very cranky hubby. We will be PCS'ing  (moving) very soon (next month actually) to Washington.. we just have a lot on our plates. But we will make it, we always do!

Last but not least - when Maddox was about 4-5 months old I had a horrible pain in my left side.. I had no idea what it was.. but it was excruciating. I took advil and cried. I thought my period was coming. The next day I was to see my general care doctor and he sent me for an ultrasound. Sure enough a cyst had ruptured and was collapsing as the u/s was being performed. At the time we had no idea I had PCOS, we thought it was a fluke. But then it started happening over and over again. So, I went on the pill. We had no intentions of having another baby anytime soon so why not? Well as Maddox got older, we decided we wanted to try for number two. We tried, but I kept have these pains. So I went to an Ob/gyn and had another u/s to find two huge cysts filled with fluid and also tissue. This is when I was diagnosed w/ PCOS. I had to have surgery. Maddox's old c-section scar was opened up and they were removed this past Sept. I went on BC for a month and then we were able to start trying again. No luck again. I went back to my gyn and was put on Clomid. On NYE I had the worst pain OF MY LIFE. FElT like labor - literally. Well an u/s was done and another cyst had ruptured and I had lots of fluid/blood in my abdomen and another 4cm cyst on the left side. I was given pain meds and sent home.On the 4th of January I went back to my OB and he said I need to see an RE (a Reproductive Endocrinologist) they are infertility doctors. So he referred me to a friend of his and I went this past Wednesday and had another u/s which showed a lemon sized cyst on my left ovary. We chose to aspirate it because no medical assistance can be done w/ a cyst like that. It was no big deal just a poke and it was neat to see the cyst shrink. Anyway, I go back Monday - he is taking this seriously and hopefully I can get pregnant this month!!! If not he will help me find a good RE in Washington!